I have no clue how they work – the Almighty and his Providence! No matter how hard I try to reassure myself about all the “I make my own destiny” crap, I grudgingly admit that at certain times all you can do about a situation is sit back and watch it unfold, helplessly. And when things do go wrong, as they will, all one can do is wring one’s hand (or others’ necks!) and curse their misfortune.
All my elaborate plans and dreams have just wasted away, leaving behind a sour taste in my mouth and a scowl on my face. And leaving others still, susceptible to my venom-laced sputtering. I had tried, all this while, to keep my expectations to a bare minimum. I was cautious against raising my anticipations too high, too soon. But hope, like those glowing embers of fire, have a way of rekindling into flames with even a hint of a gust.
As ever, in spite of everything, a thought had lingered somewhere – in the deep recesses of my mind – foreboding me: It was all too good to be true. And now that premonition has come true. Life is back to the dreary old routine – so predictable. No more plannings, no nervous uncertainties. I have nothing more to look out for….
